Foolish Beat

Currently on my headphone..

Or while working, this song is in my head. And so it applies…….

From : The American Rejects.

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won’t make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won’t make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight,
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

I actually have not tried to resolve anything for the year 2008.

Indolent is the word to start off my 2008.

Lying in bed and watching dvds are the order of the day.

I felt so wrong……..

So here goes some of the lists…

1 ) I resolved to think longer before I speak or voice out my opinions.

People tend to get offended very easily or misunderstood. I have to

realise some people are born petty… they take things too personally.

2) Spend wisely. Yeah……..Be avoiding the Shopping Malls as though it

is a quarantine zone.

3) For goodness sake, learn to write Chinese! Learn to cultivate the interest.

4) Take Pilates class. It takes passion and a willing mind.

5) Going on a real holiday.Depending on the budget..sign…

6) Wake up early at 6.45am on every working day!. It will be a miracle.

Or maybe or surely I shall follow Jonathan Edward’s….

"Resolved, to live with all my might while I do live.   

Resolved, never to lose one moment of time, to improve it   

in the most profitable way I possibly can. Resolved, never 

to do anything that I should despise or think meanly of   

in another. Resolved, never to do anything out of revenge.   

Resolved, never to do anything that I should be afraid to   

do if it were the last hour of my life."   

It’s time like this, my mind is drifting.

My hate lists of 2007;

Truth to be told, I hate it. Hate is a strong word but I truly abhor it.

I hate when good things are at a roll, it passes and died a natural death.

It saddens me that good times pass by quickly.

I shivered when good people leaves and the bad ones still dancing around haunting my life.

I hate it when your beloved don’t keep his promise.

I hate myself when I cared for something I should not bothered.

I hate it when the good things in life are not that really free at all.

I hate it when Liverpool lost to Manchester United.

I dreaded when I have not accomplished my career goal this year. Even crappy to think the problem lies with me and no one else.

I hate when people lied blatantly in my face.

I hate it when my bank account is depleting.

I hate the fact that I have not go to a proper holiday this year.

I hate to let go.

2007 is not perfect but for an untold reason, I hate to see it gradually moves on to 2008.

Spend my Christmas breaks in JB.

Had intended to spend at least a day at home in isolation before Christmas Eve. Just lie down on the sofa and watch a lot of dvds. Wish to have a time alone at my comfortable abode.

But it never meant to be. Then again, it’s been worthwhile.

And on Christmas Eve, I savoured these…..

After the lunch gathering at Orico and thanksgiving dinner with cousins, off to rock the night away with hot babes, Felicia and Grace. Maybe it is my last party for the year 2007. Counting down to Christmas, counting down for wishes to come true…..

All I want for Christmas?. Love from family and friends…To Love and Be Loved.

2007?.. time comes and goes…Con Te Partiro, Que Sera Sera , what will be, will be..

2007 is going to be over soon.

Tracing back, God had answered many prayers. I always feel thankful. There are still the trials and tribulations, but I’m holding on. Maybe I’m so used to it, maybe I’m living the rule of being contented. Somehow or rather, I felt blessed.

Does not even matter that I have not keep many of my list of tasks or goals that I had wrote down in January 2007. Such as waking up every morning at 6.30am, go for Pilates class, learn to write mandarin and other things I’m too shameful to reveal here. Or maybe, there are still time to do those outstanding tasks. Well, 15 days to go for some miracles. I just had to drag my mind to do it!.

Meanwhile, Wasabi had send some past pictures to me .

I can say that it is my favourite photo for 2007 so far. It was taken while I acted like a kid, have not grown up , have not acted sensibly and not being responsible. Well, I guessed at that moment I want to be free. Cannot say too much here. But I reckoned that was a most memorable day. Silly but fun.

Hence, being Silly and Foolish seems to be the misdemeanours that I committed the most this year.

Like I had said, nonetheless it’s not perfect but it’s been blissful.  Life goes on and I’m learning every day…..

First Sight Of Christmas Tree in The Office.

Before                               &            After

And the Photo Shoots   

And The First Pre-Xmas Gathering …..

And the sheer feelings in the winter wonderland…did not matter even it’s fake…

MERRY ROCKING CHRISTMAS…

Dearest Family, Cousins & Dearest Friends & Colleagues & Readers of My BloGs….     GOD Bless & Peace On EarTh…Loads of Love…

She wrote the controversial coffee book table, the dare tell all book,`Excuse Me, Are You A Model?’.

She revealed her desires, her dreams and her life. And somehow it almost launched her career not as a model but almost as a writer.

She kind of inspired me in terms of her courage and being true to herself and in a way, wanting to become a writer as well.

She did not have the desire to hide her thoughts, want to be expressively real and brutally honest.

Of the many hypocrites and pretentious people I had met almost daily, it struck me why people just tend to condemn people who are being direct in their opinions and like those who always seem to be pretentiously nice and sweet on the outside? Sign……..

Bonny Hick’s haunting quote ;

The brevity of life on earth cannot be overemphasized. I cannot take for granted that time is on my side—because it is not…. Heaven can wait, but I cannot.

Her early demise sound eerily true to her belief.

May God Bless her SouL.

** Note : She died in the SilkAir Crash on the 19th December 1997

Little Angel conceived.

Before Christmas, I will have little sheeps running around the house.

Can’t wait…..i feel like a mother….

Wow

BUSY STRESSFUL DAYS

CRAPPY WORKLOADS

SUSPECTING DISASTER

MISUNDERSTOOD

CONFUSED

FAKE PEOPLE

HIGH TENSION

DAZED STONED MORNINGS

just to sum out the past 5 days of my life……. AND I AM STILL breathing.

Thank God! the joys of Yuletide Cheers is coming SOON! `ROcKinG AroUnd THe
CHRIStMAS AND A HaPPy HolIdaY’ Cheers……..HappY DAYs!!!!