In transition
`So you had decide’. `Yes I have. This is my choice. It’s good to be away for a while. It’s been quite stressful for me for the past few years, you know’ , I confided to my friend, JN. Give me one year, let me rest for a while, let me be alone and be free for once. Let me live for myself for the first time in years.
`I know’, she glanced at me, a suspecting sympathetic expressions and nodded in agreement . She knew what I had gone through, a rustle of emotional well being.
I don’t think I can take it anymore.
Right at the beginning of 2006, I had a desire to leave…far far away, as far as can be.
To just leave it all behind, to relieve of everything I had been shouldering. To just break free.
And thus I ended up in KL..ha!..just 4 hours from JB. Freaking comical to know that’s how far I can go. But at least I be alone for a while, to keep my mind free from the hassle at home, to be emotionally free, to rest , to be independent at ripe old age of 30 (damn,,,)..
A concerned friend retorted..`hey, girl…..you be renting a room with no air-con & heater, you be eating out all the time and do your own laundry, you be so alone. She’s right. A few good friends been trying hard to conjure all the possible inconveniences I may face so that I will somehow recoiled in horror and rejected the job transfer. Well, alright ,I admit, I miss my all so worthy bed at home and how lame that can be.
But the physical discomforts I had experienced while working in KL is bearable compare to the emotional burdens I felt before. No complains. I stayed with a nice lady with a cute poodle right smack somewhere near One U. I came back from work with a poodle wagging her tail and licked my fingers, I had the time to do the things I want without feeling bogged down by responsibilities and accountabilities….call me irresponsible, call me an escapist, I don’t heck care. For once, I live for myself and cherish it.
It’s been one good albeit a confused liberated year. And I want another year to be free, an improved version of 2006 I surely pray.……………Amen.
Yeap. sure you doing well compare with last year. Who is JD? The handsome guys? haha, never mind. You seem unhappy last year. You will be happy for the year 2007, cause you got all of us.
Jeffreyson said this on July 19, 2007 at 1:31 am