Foolish Beat

Bummer, I am in front of my laptop, I want to rant so much about one issue….

The issue I faced in my new job in a new industry.

Then someone reminded me of how much I always whined about my work from my previous company I worked in…yeah, no doubt I faced few challenges in my previous job and then now, I face a new hurdle. Great, why it can’t be smooth sailing?.

Girl, stop whining, I told myself . It’s not a big deal. So what, if it was the first time you been disliked by some colleagues on the first week of work ?
But I just can’t helped it…..I can’t accept that people is so unkind, I mean they don’t even know me yet.
It doesn’t freaking make sense at all.

My good friend said, `hey, they are like that one’. I said ` like what?’. She continued `that people is not always nice’. But I was unable to swallow the fact and said ` but I didn’t do or say anything to them yet, it was my first day in the company’. JN almost yelled ` miss, it was your first time?..office politics?’…then I said, `oh…. so it’s real, not a myth?’. I can hear JN’s laugh.

And gosh, I thought being yelled at from my previous CEO was worst. This politic things are so hauntingly hellish, it was frustrating and so unjust. That resulted in me unable to stay focus at work. It’s disturbing.

From much encouragements from JN, my good friend, I must face it head on, be fearless and be firm with them. I’m on a higher level designate than them anyway.

But something inside me, just say, `be cool, they will accept you soon and just be yourself’.

It’s not smooth sailing because nothing is perfect. Flat out deal with it girl…….

I’m so will………………………..

p/s: Meanwhile, wanna say thanks to Choong and Quenny….thanks for listening to my rants so patiently….also especially to JN: woman, you called me at the right time that day!, hope I survive this ordeal’.

~ by foolishbeat on April 22, 2007.