Foolish Beat

It’s sad.

They are so beautiful, so adorable, intelligent mammals, at times they even friendly to us and faithful like our pet dogs, but they are increasingly fragile. Their mere existence is in danger, their home on free waters of open oceans are at a  limited scale due to the merciless hunting of some inhumane individuals!.

Why people are hunting them with such a senseless intensity?.

Every time I came across a heart-wrenching news or seeing a video clips like these >>>

“Dolphin Drive Hunts occur in the village of Taiji. The Japanese government permits a small number of fishermen to herd thousands of dolphins and other small whales into shallow coves where they are violently butchered with knives and clubs”. >>>>>> extract from http://www.theoceanproject.org/actfordolphins/

my heart bleeds for them..yeah sound mushy…but my affection for them are real. I believe it’s true for all whale and dolphin lovers out there.

They are really harmless, spare them & love them out of the goodness from the heart.

Is that hard?.

              Let Them Free

        Let Them Live

Really?.. Not that pain?, Hmm….alright, I decided I will do it. No fear shall comes my way’ I said. Then I declared it at my msn : `Tripping Journey…I’m going for tattoo’.

That got some people in attention especially SK…`Really’, You want tattoo?.

I said `ya ya..Glo said no pain’. So when?. He prodded. On xx/xx/xx..came my reply..

Few minutes later Wasabi msned me…`tattoo’….I said yeah…..

Then more people responded…some friends and then my cousins. Cousin Mel hailed my decision while another cousin said no , maybe due to religious reasons.

By deep in my heart, I definitely not going for self-mutilation which I tried to reassure him. Wait a minute, maybe I am, can’t really tell.

My colleague KD said,` So you want a tatt?’..I said..`yeah, she said no pain’.

Glo looked at Kd and said, `actually jenn was asking about ear-piercing, then suddenly the conversation turned to tattoo’.

KD turned concerned, `hey! do you know what is ear-piercing and what is tattoo?’.

I almost want to hide. Yeah….(blushed) I think I know the difference.

A months plus past after the conversation, SK asked me ,` So you want to have a tatt?’.

I answered , ` I’m still not sure, how about you?’’. SK: `I think I will go’.

Me: You go first and I want to accompany you because wanna see your expressions. I will make a wise decision after seeing your facial expressions.He was annoyed.

Until then, I am still contemplating on the tattoo design and on the

repercussion of it being stick on my body for a lifetime.

Last week, I watched `Someone Like you’ all over again. I just love it and I think I had watched it for the seventh time!. Love the charismatic Ashley Judd and the wholesome Hugh Jakeman.

It is a feel good movie, where it teaches that somehow there are things we had overlooked and appreciates. And there are things which we must eventually let go and move on.

It reminds me that I just decided to release the feelings that been tangled in my heart for some time. I’m happy i felt for him, I’m glad that I have someone to miss,someone to make me smile. I delighted that he made me letting go of my past love, I felt cared for when I’m around him. Felt warmed that we have our special moments,I felt like a miracle, maybe because somehow i had found someone I actually adore after for so long. Nevertheless nothing is perfect. A sub-conscious mind tells me he chose not to love me. Yet, I felt contented maybe because we remain friends despite everything or maybe he makes me believe miracles do happen to me again.
My heart tells me not to feel for him at this moment and I abide .

If it God’s will, I shall come across a mutual love one day. My faith never fades.

I’m been listening to one of the `Someone Like You’ soundtrack. It’s a feel good song from Madness.

It Must Be Love

I never thought I`d miss you
Half as much as I do
And I never thought I`d feel this way
The way I feel
About you
As soon as I wake up
Every night, every day
I know that it`s you I need
To take the blues away

It must be love, love, love
It must be love, love, love
Nothing more, nothing less
Love is the best

How can it be that we can
Say so much without words?
Bless you and bless me
Bless the bees
And the birds
I`ve got to be near you
Every night, every day
I couldn`t be happy
Any other way

It must be love, love, love
It must be love, love, love
Nothing more, nothing less
Love is the best

As soon as I wake up
Every night, every day
I know that it`s you I need
To take the blues away

It must be love, love, love
It must be love, love, love
Nothing more, nothing less
Love is the best

It must be love, love, love…
It Must Be Love

Opened up my eyes, a bit shocked , panic triggers my mind, gosh…..am I late?. It’s already 8.00am?. My God, what day is today?.

I’m so lost. What am I going to wear?. It’s Monday already?. Huh?.. man… I’m so really stoned.

Then the sms came, my friend said he can only come over after lunch to fix my car.

I gave a sign of relief realizing it is actually Sunday. I need to go to church today and not work!.

Guessed I’m felt so drugged from all the medicines I had took for the past few days for my flu. Could not sleep well even though they supposed to make me drowsy and drifted me to sleep. Or maybe I had been thinking a lot about work recently. Things are not going that well and it sometimes gave me reminders in my dreams when I was asleep. Stressed and felt insecure about some other things as well.

Nevertheless, I’m excited about going to church. Heard a very awesome sermon, struck a chord in my heart and somehow I felt good, felt inspired. God is awesome.

I still feel lethargic, I slept very little but yet, I have Faith.

I pray for a fruitful weekday ahead and a good sleep.

Here it goes again.

Another dear friend leaving to reach her desired destiny.

leaving me to ponder about my destiny as well…

Life goes on and I am still hanging there….

I had my hair trimmed today and prayed that it will turn out good as I try out a new hairstylist.

Want to change cause my financial status is depleting at a crazy rate. Could not afford my regular hairstylist because of the rates he charged me although I must admit that his skills are good. And I desperately in need of a head massage!. Was so freaking tired lately.

Turned out nice. That’s the comment my housemate gave me. She was complaining that my regular salon is expensive. Angel glanced over me and almost jumped at me when I lied down on the sofa. She must be satisfied with my hair.

Both Angel and Precious had their hair trimmed too by my housemate. I begged my housemate not to shave Angel’s hair too short but she assured me it will grow very fast.

Well, I miss her fluffy hair with those natural curls. She always looked funny with her rather short mane.

After they had their grooming done by my ever considerate housemate, they happily jumped out and down and my favourite moment was when they were wagging their tails.

They looked so beautiful and estatic. Saw them running in pairs really amused me. They really looked like two little sheeps.

We took photos cause we are happy with the new us on a relaxing Sunday like this. Bliss…

Been listening to Umbrella by Mandy Moore and Avril’s Falling Down lately…..madness for this week onwards until end November begins… Hope I still be breathing by December.

Falling Down

If fear’s what makes us decide
Our future journey
Well, I’m not along for the ride
‘Cause I’m still yearning
To try and touch the sun
My fingers burning
Before you’re old, you are young
Yeah, I’m still learning

Chorus:
I am falling down
Try and stop me
It feels so good to hit the ground
You can watch me
Fall right on my face
It’s an uphill human race
And I am falling down.

I’m standing out in the street
The earth is moving
I feel it under my feet
And I’m still proving
That I can stand my grounds
And my feet are there
Haven’t washed my hair
To be lost before you I found,
Don’t mean you’re losing…

Chorus

Someday I’ll live in a house
Etcetera, Etcetera, Etcetera
But you know that’s not for now
And for now, I’m falling down, down, down
Down, down, down
Down, down, down

(Yeah, yeah, yeah, oooh)

Chorus x 2

My close friend in the company, JY dozed off in the washroom cubicle for few minutes. She felt freaking sleepy while there are some boring workloads on her desk. Other friend,SK was too free with somehow nearly nothing to do so he had all his free time surfing the internet for leisure and chatting with JY at the same time via the intercom line to keep her awake.

Meanwhile, I had a busy Monday. Not a blue Monday but meaningless day with a meaningless due crappy report. I’m tired and slightly felt dreaded after receiving some crappy annoying emails from boss. Just a bit drained. In the midst of report and task lists deadlines to submit, had managed to chat with my dear ex-singapore colleague about my meaningless Monday through the cyber space. Chatting and released my rant with somebody close managed to distress me a bit and I managed to submit my task lists in time.

Witnessed a wonderful view of the magnificent sunset while starting my journey home. Felt sort of surreal. And in a magical sort of way, on a mild traffic, I saw a full fledged rainbow. Beautiful. I snapped those two nature bestowed miracles while driving and ignoring the cars behind me.

It’s a beautiful end to my meaningless Monday. I could not ask for more.

Meanwhile, JY went back early, on the dot as she really need the sleep. SK gone home and continue his internet surfing at home.

The next day is just another day at work for all of us all over again. Life against the grain. Phew…

I like to go to airports.

Yes, I love it since I was a kid. Enjoyed seeing people dragging their luggage hurriedly and looking at people’s varied expressions at those transit places.

There are somehow dramatic expressions, those longing hugs, kisses and tears. People that are departing and arriving.

And it is also comical to witness those frantic faces coming from those who almost miss their flights.

As well as seeing people with those serious faces, those corporate type who had big responsibilities on their shoulders. I think the best of all and the happiest group are those that departing for glorious holidays.

Besides that, I am a person who just enjoys seeing the planes fly. I still find it is a miracle to see such a heavy weight machine to be able to fly. And for something I can’t explain, just see a mega jet touching down the runway really take my breath away.

Recently, while waiting for my flight home at

Hong Kong

airport, I managed to have a glimpse at the A380 super jumbo jet. How I wish to see it fly.

I leave the airport wishing my flight home will be a smooth one. My expressions?. Deadbeat. Yes, I was on a working  trip.    

Last Sunday I gorged myself with delectable pancakes. Mmmm…yummy, it’s my love all along. But had it all twice in one day?. Fanatic?. No.